Creating this painting was a revelation for me, as it offered a deeper understanding of myself. The artwork features eight depictions of me (GOD) in various emotional states—happy, sad, angry, and silent.

In conversations with my father about divine intervention, he would challenge me with profound questions: if God helps people, why do hunger and war claim innocent lives? Through these discussions, he aimed to teach me that “God” symbolizes our own selves. I came to believe that I alone am responsible for crafting my destiny. Living by this belief, I refrained from seeking outside help or blaming others for the events in my life.

Then, one day, I lost everything. This led me to question, if I am God, why do I feel like such a failure? I recalled the story of Adam defying God’s command and eating the apple, leading to his expulsion from paradise to end the shame of his disobedience.

What was my path forward? I decided to relinquish all my possessions and detach from worldly attachments, much like God, to overcome the stature of feeling inept. The story titled “I Talked for Thousands of Years, and She Talked” captures the journey of God embracing loss until acceptance was achieved, setting her free. After this acceptance, the internal dialogue ceased after what felt like millennia, as time passed differently for God. Ultimately, God realized that there are things beyond her awareness and control.

Reflecting on my own life to create this artwork empowers me to accept my own uncertainties and trust the process.